9 months. 2 doctors. 4 IUIs, and now an acupuncturist. Still no baby. BUT I am trying to stay positive. My first doctor was an absolute nightmare. I made the decision before we started trying to get pregnant, that I was going to go off my meds. Being bi-polar, this was a serious decision that involved a lot of thought. However, the ob/gyn decided that first I needed to see a genetic counselor, so we understood the chances that our kid might be bi-polar. My dad is bi-polar, so I am more than a little aware of the chances. We wait three weeks to go see the counselor, and when we sit down to talk to her, she has no idea why we were even sent to her. So then the ob/gyn decides I needed permission from my psychiatrist. Literally. She wanted me to bring in a note. While this may not seem like a big deal to some people, having someone question my ability to make life changing decisions was a big deal to me.
Since we have to go through a doctor to get pregnant (we have to do IUIs,) and this doctor managed to make me feel like absolute crap, we moved on fairly quickly to the next. Oh... Only after she did a pap smear, told me the results were abnormal and I had pre-cancerous cells, and then left me a message a few weeks later telling me everything was fine, while she had her lunch in her mouth. No joke.
So we went to a doctor that works specifically with infertility. And this doctor is wonderful. She's down to earth, doesn't think that bi-polar disorder should take me out of the breeding pool. Yay. So we get all the tests done to make sure we are good to go, and we head down the road to parenthood... At least we thought we did.
We have had 4 IUIs with no success, which is emotionally and financially draining. And it looks like IVF could be in our future, which is 15 grand each time. So planning a wedding, law school, and IVF is going to be insanely expensive. Noah is handling it like a champ, a frickin' ray of sunshine... I, on the other hand, am handling it in the way that is slightly less positive. It does not help that half the world is popping up pregnant, in a collective shout out to how their uterus works, while mine is being uncooperative.
Things are looking up a little though. Since the doctor is unsure of why I am not getting pregnant, there are a few things that need to be addressed. One being my weight. I have gained a considerable amount since I quit smoking. Two being my stress. Which, if you have ever met me, needs no real explanation. I am stressed all the time. So the doc recommended I go to an acupuncturist.... My mom recommended I start smoking again. While I was really considering my mom's suggestion, I went with the doctor's instead.
Over the last two weeks I have visited the acupuncturist and I have already seen a significant change in my sleeping pattern. She has recommended a 21 days detox, that I will be starting on Friday. A lot of what I have read about it has been positive, so I guess we shall see.
4 comments:
I'm really excited that acupuncture seems to be working for you! I loved it when I was pregnant with Archer. And I hope this works for you guys soon. I know you want it so bad. Glad we are both blogging so we can keep up with each others day to day.
Sarah! I miss you! I hope you are having so much fun out of the Texas heat. Don't have too much fun though, I definitely want you to come back! BTW, love your blog.
Kim, I am praying for you guys. I know how much yall want a baby. It will happen for you. I kind of understand the frustration of waiting and feeling like it will never happen. Just try to stay positive and do a lot of the things that will mellow you out. Try to read some old school romance novels or when you start to feel stressed, just do the sock it to me dance on a table. Love you Kim!
Thanks so much Toya!
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